Suicide Survival is a Mod of Half-Life 2 Deathmatch. There are two teams so you either play as Survivor or as Suicider. The goal for Survivors is to stay alive (duh!) and to spot the Suiciders before they can get close enough of to you. They have the book â Gardening for Beginnersâ by Barbara Bush as a self-defence weapon. The goal for Suiciders is to sneak up close enough to the Survivors so you can blow yourself up. Suiciders play as shrubberies in a map full of shrubberies thus blending in with the enviroment. If they dont move you dont know which one is being played by a player.